I am new in the blogging world. As exciting as that sounds, I am coming from a place of pain and disappointment. It has been a while since I started writing letters to this person that I have been praying for - until someone told me that he (finally) decided to pursue his feelings for someone else. For months, I have been knocking on heaven's door, challenging my faith and really holding on to God's promise that He will grant my heart's desire as long as I believe.
I did. I really did.
One day, I told my close friend (someone close to this guy as well) that lately, I had this impressed in my heart to pray that God takes away my feelings. She got surprised and was prompted to tell me that she knows of a girl that he likes. I did not know what to say. For the first time in months, I was rendered speechless.
I dropped my phone and started crying, because finally, my prayer was answered. And the answer is NO.
I don't think anyone wants that response for anything they have been believing for.
